Thursday, May 6, 2021

follow up to my post-breakdown post

- First, my successful outcome doesn’t mean things can work out for everyone enduring paranoid breaks; the therapist’s and psychiatrist’s skepticism were warranted. After all, this problem can be very resistant to change. My Everything At Once in Heavy Doses approach is no guarantee of success. My younger brother suffered from adolescent onset paranoid schizophrenia. He recovered only enough to live on his own on Social Security in Section 8 housing, never able to work. In his final years, he barely left his apartment. In the end he passed away due to a combination of personal and medical care mistakes. This was the combination that brought on his ailment in the first place: too many drugs, too much persecution by the authorities, and his innate tendencies. Some parallels with me were spooky to see, but his problems were far deeper. I am curious about how he would have reacted to a program like mine when he was young, especially before his major drug use. On the other hand, psychiatric thinking was simple-minded back then. Most would say something along the lines of  “drugs just ruin your mind/Turn On” or at best, bad versions of Double Bind Theory. 

- Second, nearly all the things I did to recover are integral parts of my life now. I do drink coffee, though 😁 

- Third, the post was not just a hopeful note for those in similar circumstances. It was also a status report for those involved in any way. I probably owed something along those lines.


  1. Thanks for sharing. My friend Toni, from graduate school, had a son who, at age 22, had a psychotic break brought on by drug use, was in and out of hospitals for 10 years .Extremely poor treatment by the "system". He suicided a year ago. Heartbreaking....

  2. I remember Toni. Sorry about her son - suicide often leaves such broken hearts, as with Laurence and me


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